Small little voices
Grumble in the darkness behind your eyelids.
You blinked long enough to dream a night away
But the only sign you slept at all
Is the nest left in your hair by the weaver birds,
Who built the crumbling castles in your mind
As you lay there.
Neurones tossed and turned in the night
Trying to reconstruct reality from jigsaw
yesterdays corners and edgeless tomorrows.
The picture makes little sense in this realm
where colours and caution are equally fleeting,
when thrown to the wind.
Don't you know shadows disappear at sundown
Only to stalk you in your slumber
As you weep through your sweat glands.
Your eyes twitch in their sockets,
Darting side to side trying to find the villains
Who's misplaced faces seem so familiar,
Like the backs of your hands that pull their strings.
You are equally there and not there.
Puppet and puppet master.
And of all the things that go thump in the night,
Your heart is by far the loudest;
If only you could hear it above your screams
That barely break the surface of reality,
intelligible whimpers for no one to notice.
Your dreambody goes through the motions,
As if you were autotuned to the tune of someone else's pipe.
Smoke escapes your lips as you try desperately to quell the unseen fires
that only burn on an MRI scan.
Fires ignited from worryseeds planted in daylight,
forgotten in the hustle and bustle of life.
But you cannot outrun your demons in a photograph;
In the still picture of your head on a sweat soaked pillow.
The restful chaos within you.
You flick through channels trying to find a screen in your mind
where your dismembered body pulls itself together.
But the remote stops working
and no amount of hitting it against your hand
will bring either one of them back to life.
The screen switches to the black pitted eyes of shadow men
made of static and suspicion.
Your ribs cage your lungs and tighten and squeeze
until it seems life is no longer an option,
And the thought does occur to you that that's just fine but
Instinct is forever the hurdle;
it finds a gram of blood to reanimate your veins,
Your muscles flinch with the force of the fall into reality.
Gasping and panting,
Pupils readjusting to the more placid darkness of your bedroom.
to your racing heart,
it was only a nightmare.